Wednesday, January 25, 2012

in real life

alrighty my beautiful bloggy friends,

it's time for a confession of 

where i'm at right now in real life. 

 ready.go.

emotionally frail,

spiritually weak,

and physically sick.

BAM

so there you have it.

::  ::  ::

i'm going through one of those stormy,

night time experiences when

you're [dogonsure] you're lost,

you know where you're going, but

its raining cats and dogs, you're going in circles

and you're not sure when it all will stop.

sums it up.

::  ::  ::  

when i woke up this morning

i din't want to wake up.

i didn't want to face the day.

i wanted to fall back asleep

and wake up when the storm stopped

and the sun was shinning.

::  ::  ::

but yo...

reality check baby.

there was a whole bunch of little people

eager to learn under our tutoring tree this morning

a hot shower to be had, and

lots of grace and mercy from Jesus that was just waiting

to be taken advantage of.

::  ::  ::

as i asked Jesus [why]?

i felt like He was saying;

{just make it through this day tiff}

{and look for simple beauty}

{it may mean looking at everything from a new perspectives}

{don't maintain regrets of yesterday}

{don't worry about tomorrow}

::  ::  ::

so this is for you Jesus.

this is what i saw so beautiful today.


and this is from that new perspective.


xoxo

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ps.  
here's a snap shot of the camp showers with cold water 
next to my warm shower at my house.
some people eat when they are sad.
i take showers.
best place to make life decisions,
brain storm, and
cry.
¡el fin! 



2 comments:

Rebecca at Cotton+Wood said...

I'm so sorry, hon. So glad that Nicole gets to be with you soon.


{{hugs}} + prayers

Vanisha @ Vanisha's Life In...Australia said...

I'm really sorry that you feel this way, but it shall pass and you will be so much stronger for it <3