stillness

do you ever feel like just laying down in the battle? do you ever feel like just rolling over and dieing because you're tired of fighting?

"You shall not need to fight in this battle: set yourselves, stand ye still, and see the salvation of the Lord with you, O Judah and Jerusalem: fear not, nor be dismayed; tomorrow go out against them: for the Lord will be with you."

as i read these verses the other afternoon i was once again reminded that sometimes i try WAY to hard! God's saying... hey! hold up! stand still and watch what I can do! sounds so easy doesn't it?!?! the truth is... IT IS! we as humans just make life so difficult and in the end IT IS so hard.

the last month i thought i knew. doors that where so open and inviting and screaming my name telling me to come walk through. but then (it seemed) at the most inopportune time the door goes slamming shut in my face.

i struggle with thoughts such as why did God open a door just to close it? why does it seem that everything i've ever dreamed of isn't what God wants for me? what He wants for me is something that's going to be totally opposite of what i ever dreamed of?

even though i struggle with such thoughts, deep down i know He's the author of my story and in His own time it will all be so clear and BEAUTIFUL!

until then...

I'm waiting

I'm waiting on you Lord

And i am hopeful

I'm waiting on you Lord

Though it is painful

But patiently I will wait

I will move ahead bold and confident

Taking every step in obedience

While I'm waiting

I will serve you

While I'm waiting

I will worship

While I'm waiting

I will not faint

I'll be running the race

Even while I wait

I'm waiting

I'm waiting on you Lord

And I am peaceful

I'm waiting on you Lord

Though it's not easy

But faithfully i will wait.

There strength is to sit still! Is. 30:7